Sometimes, I feel like a pathetic lady. My biggest desire is to be sealed to Sammy for time and all eternity and it's all I've been able to think about the last ten months and now, I've reached the end of my rope. I'm going crazy. I just want it so bad, and it makes me feel pathetic that I can't seem to move on.
Today, I don't want to be a grown up.
I get really mad whenever I get emails from the suicide prevention team I used to volunteer for. It always makes me feel so stupid that I was being taught daily the signs of suicide and depression and then I was blind when it was right next to me.
I've been letting my fear get the best of me.
I need to stop feeling sorry for myself.
Venting on here feels better than paper.